nobodyimportant

Apathy

I feel the good in my heart and soul, i want good for all.
I feel the evil in my body, in my mind i want evil for many.

As a child, i have killed living beings for sport, for practice, for lack of guidance, to show how good i was
how true my aim could be.

I have loved without asking for nothing in return, just to give made me happy.

I have grown, met new opinions, new outlooks. Was, perhaps still am confused.

I feel the urges, i shut them out.  I feel the love I tune it down.

I wanted all, now i want nothing.

I could have it all but for what?

I have become addicted to sex, never taking advantage of anyone.

I have connected with the evil in the world to feel what it is like. I found nothing really useful, though possibly
temporarily enticing, emptiness follows.

I am torn by all the evil things i see, i hear.  I know where they come from. 

I am a giver not a taker. I don't want money. Though i may think i need it, it is simply a dead tree.

I have loved i have hated, i have envied but am kind, I am funny but ready to explode.

I have settled away from all, except those who i love and ask nothing of me. It is time to reboot.

I have found it is easy to take for some and harder to give.  Possessions cause greed.  This is mine this i yours. Nothing is yours nothing is mine when i die even my body will not recognize me anymore

So what am I my knowledge? my conscience, my conscious thoughts? surely i am not my car, my house, my money. I am not even my wife, my child, my dog. I am not even what i have built.

I am everyone and Nobody.